Scarlet , Hello my dear friend .
Are we ever happy ?
The answer to that is as individual as every star in our night sky .
Love is different for every one of us and so is what makes us happy , however true happiness is the rarest form and so is true love.
The hardest to find , the longest to discover .
You mention having a few moments of ‘his time’ , I presume you are looking to be found , found by him and with his eyes only he could see the beauty that lies within .
As you say , the need to be loved and love those close to us is in our soul .
The kind of love that makes everything else in the world disappear when you’re with that person , when all you can hear is their voice , all you can see is them , it’s blinding & yet compelling , it’s engulfing .
You can’t pull away from that person , ever .
The hardest is the loneliness without them , you don’t know where to look in the darkness .
Be careful with kindness , be careful with trust , both are abused chronically in our ever decaying society where abuse and neglect run rife , but never surrender yourself or your values to social conformities.
There are but a few of us left , with values , with respect .
We may be the last that still believe , we may be the last to have the dream .
We won’t be the last to love .
But it hurts most when those we love are beyond reach .
For my sins I suffer this heartbreaking loneliness , missing the eyes of the one I exist for.
Thank you scarlet , your words mean so much